Forgiven to Forgive

So much love, commitment gave I
With all my heart, Loved I another’s child
Left mother, father, creed and clan
Took upon me another’s name

Heaven on earth, promised he me
Forever you shall be mine and I yours
His words so sweet, precious to my ear
Queen of his heart, I sleep in bliss

Fly in the ointment! His heart to another?
In another’s arms he lies, I alone
Can’t look me in the eye, Barriers so high
Torn in two, Tortured being; My love

Numerous times, Middle of nights
Silently he creeps, lies next me
Straight as a log, touching me not
Both awake, then suddenly he snores!

Curled like a foetus, Chest to my knees
I hug myself, Silent tears, Hushed sobs
Crunching the pain out of my guts! The pain!
Like vomit; It clings; Refuses to go; Take it away!

Cheated on, Rejected, Sick to the stomach
Doubt myself, the demons back
Accusing, mocking, what were you thinking?
You’re too shallow for a man as he

Wedlock, instituted by God in Eden
To be a reflection of His love for man
Sweet communion for Creator and creature
Corrupted, piercing God’s heart with pain

Now a void and dismal canyon lies
Separates me from my dearest One
Long for Him but my infidelity
Keeps the chasm ever so wide

In love He sought me from the mountains
Pleasures thought I, but bitterness reaped
He had to leave the ninety and nine
To seek the one in pain, sickness and despair

Mercy! Grace! Justice! Kiss each other
And make me Restored once more to my life’s Love
Nothing I do can ever repay
I owed so great a debt, only His death could pay

Left He His glory in heaven above
Trod the winepress with blood stained
Humbled Himself to death, death of a cross
Just so in His name, once more could I be called?

Pleasures he sought, left wounds so deep
She just took and took, and gave nothing back
He comes to me and in tears pleads
Take me back my love, I am yours once more

My chance to get the vengeance I sought!
Oh! What a joy this will be
For him to feel a taste of his own medicine
The hurt still lingers, I can’t forgive

Then I look upon that hill, a hill called Mt. Calvary
Outside the City gates, where my Saviour hung
In love and compassion He shows me too
How like a harlot I too sought other gods

It hurt my loved One when I trusted in others
Yet in love He sought me, Pursued me till I could be found
Behold what manner of love is this?
That a God so great would humble Himself for me

Come my love back into my arms and heart
I was given much more than I could repay
Your wrongs to me fade into oblivion
Compared to what I’ve done against God

Who am I to not forgive?
When such as my sins are covered in His blood
Forgiven to forgive I was; I forgive you
I love you my love, with an endless love!

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